Until My Ankle's Better

by Destroy Nate Allen

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Immediate download of the 15 track album in the format your choice. When you download the complete album it comes with a custom zine including the complete lyrics, chords and background stories!
    Purchasable with gift card

      name your price

     

  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    Order the 15 song album today. Ankle comes in a 100% post consumer full color digipak complete with a zine containing lyrics, chords and stories behind each song.

    When you buy the album from us you will be emailed a link to download the record for free.
    ships out within 10 days
    edition of 1000 

      $5 USD

     

1.
Chorus: Well I've gotta find out & I gotta know now what you're gonna want me to do Well I've gotta find out & I gotta know now what you're gonna want me to do Well I've gotta find out & I gotta know now what you're gonna want me to do Yes I've got a little problem and it's rubbing off on you see I'm constantly buzzing and moving all around I've got so much insecurity I can't let myself slow down but the circle must be broken yes the wheel it must be jammed because I'm not who I'm meant to be and I gotta find to who I am Chorus: Well I've gotta find out & I gotta know now what you're gonna want me to do Well I've gotta find out & I gotta know now what you're gonna want me to do Well I've gotta find out & I gotta know now what you're gonna want me to do Yes I've got a little problem and it's rubbing off on you see I've tried to prove my value and that's a stupid as it sounds I thought if I could just work hard enough my dreams they would be found but the circle must be broken and the wheel it must be jammed because I'm not who I'm meant to be and I've gotta find who I am Chorus: Well I've gotta find out & I gotta know now what you're gonna want me to do Well I've gotta find out & I gotta know now what you're gonna want me to do Well I've gotta find out & I gotta know now what you're gonna want me to do Yes I've got a little problem and it's rubbing off on you but in the end it's inconclusive if I've accomplished everything by pressing through to all my goals with false realities but the circle must be broken and the wheel it must be jammed because I'm not who I'm meant to be & I've gotta find who I am
2.
Chorus: New Years Day and there's blood on the banjo there's blood on the banjo and blood on the tracks Well I'm feeling disconnected and I've probably just neglected too many things to ever fully know Chorus: New Years Day and there's blood on the banjo there's blood on the banjo and blood on the tracks See for six months we’ve been living on the road and I know I didn’t call you even though I am addicted to my phone Chorus: New Years Day and there's blood on the banjo there's blood on the banjo and blood on the tracks so now it's time for awkward conversations for seeing friends I never get to see and now it's time for awkward situations I wish you knew how much you mean to me Chorus: New Years Day and there's blood on the banjo there's blood on the banjo and blood on the tracks
3.
Chorus: Is there anybody out there? Is there anybody there? Is there anybody listening to me? Does anybody care? Now I'm sitting on the corner of Borthwick and Failing Street Singing in a room all alone, but not alone in this world chorus Well I fought through this depression and I am on the other side feeling just a little stir-crazy like I wanna go outside but first I need to clean my bedroom like when I was in third grade funny how now that I am grown up, my bed is still not made chorus now my baby's on the telephone talking to her momma in PA sometimes I wish I was there now, yes I'd like to run away but I need to take the trash out from the middle of the floor cause when the trash is taken out it won't smell no more chorus sometimes it's all the small things that I forget to do it’s easy to dream of many things when there’s homework left to do chorus
4.
Chorus: A Bible and a side of whiskey on the side of a Sunday afternoon I wish it was just summer time and summer time’s coming soon Well I grew up always hearing that this alcohol was wrong but I’m so thankful you’re listening and you’re singing right-a-long and some days I’m still not comfortable down at the local bar and I knowing where I’ve come from that still seems pretty far chorus if sin is to be defined by who we are and what we drink then maybe we should wipe off the slate and take a little time to think see Jesus drank more alcohol than I will ever know yes he turned that water into wine oh the bible tells me so chorus still I don’t like the taste of alcohol or cigarettes and as I’m getting older that’s no longer a regret but I do want to know you and consider you a friend and if that means staying up too late well you can count me in chorus
5.
Chorus: fruit punch and alcohol they've got nothing to say jesus came and washed all my sins away – woa oh oh oa when I see a cop I go the other way jesus came and washed all my sins away – woa oh oh oa Truth is I'm questioning my future and that I struggle with my past Truth is I'm questioning my future and seeking after things that last chorus Truth is that I'm afraid to tell you the things I've buried in my heart Truth is that I'm afraid to tell you fearful that things will fall apart chorus truth is that I'm afraid to tell you that I was raised in sunday school and that my sunday morning demons have kept me silent as a fool chorus
6.
Since I was in 7th grade I've wondered what the people say whenever I walk away Since I was in 4th grade I've wondered how to spell afraid and that sounds like a summary to me Since I was past 22 I wondered what they did to you and if my words they cut you like a knife Chorus: I wanna let you of the box (x3) but I'm scared Hellfire is coming soon & I'm sleeping in past noon not worrying about the climate or the times we've got to escape some way so I planned out a holiday to throw away my worries like a child then in the middle of my spring break I stumbled upon my mistakes and now I've gotta see where I went wrong Chorus Christian school can leave a mark and I'm praying for a brand new start from the scars it left that only I can see so if truth lies in the consequence and grace is more that evidence then how can I apply what I've learned because I'm getting older and I can't just walk away until I've put my demons in the ground (x 2) Chorus: hope and resolution found I'm gonna build on the solid ground and forgive those friends who let me down
7.
Math, I will defeat you but it will have to wait until morning till I go down to the tutoring center, where I'll probably find a few of my classmates all trying to do what they can to pass the midterm Well I'll ask about questions 5 & 6 and I'll try to pick up some answers quick and I'll do what I can to pass the midterm Math, I will defeat you but it will have to wait until morning till I go down to the tutoring center, where I'll probably find a few of my classmates all trying to do what they can to pass the midterm
8.
Sense and sensibility well it never meant that much to me in fact I've never seen it on tv land of opportunity well I'm pretty glad were kinda free because truth is we could be a lot worse off chorus: please tell me what you're gonna do if you're not gonna play this on the radio to maximize the rock n' roll yes were taking back some control but we seek to not avoid responsibilities Like where do go when the money's spent? Yes I'm married and I pay the rent and that's a life I'm committed to see I could go back with mom and dad see growing up wasn't that bad but that's not really what we wanna do chorus So we will do things on our terms applying the lessons we have learned and trying our best to steward what we have so if it means I gotta get an extra job eat more ramen like my Uncle Bob then maybe we will see these dreams come true chorus
9.
Small Town 03:06
Chorus: Grew up on the west coast close to the western sea met a girl from the east coast, can't believe how lucky I can be grew up in a small town my dad and grampa both worked in the mill spent my time in saw mills can't say that I miss it any still chorus Grew up playing baseball and truth it consumed most of my time threw out my arm in high school had to find a new way to unwind chorus got caught on punk rock and Green Day changed my life in 94 many years later, I still like dancing circles on the floor
10.
Gasoline 02:21
Chorus: I had a job pumping gasoline funnest job that I've ever seen I had myself a paper route, ride my bike throw the paper out chorus Across the road there was a record store, don't sell records there no more chorus Summer we'd go to the river, sunburn alley no forgiver chorus But those days are far and gone and this is a reflecting song
11.
Coffee 00:35
I said that it's too cold you told me I'm too old The sun it came out to play I said that I'm sorry you said that you're leaving I hope you will be ok I said that I'm tired you said drink some coffee I don't like my coffee black You said just get over it I said I don't want to I don't like my coffee black
12.
No work in the morning - gonna sleep in see all my friends on this fine weekend but first gotta sweep the floor clean the house hope all the kids are a quiet as a mouse chorus: It's a beautiful thing, it's a beautiful thing, it's a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful thing Gonna go for a walk - maybe stop and talk hopefully see a new band that actually rocks see a basement show cause don't you know some things in life are worth a go chorus I met a girl and she blew my mind I get to sit next to her at dinner time her smile brightens my day and when I've gone astray she finds me deep in my selfish ways chorus the sun came out and I stayed inside, put on some coffee then I went for a ride to that place you know that we all seem to go dreaming with some friends of going to Mexico chorus if you're here to scoff maybe you're better off finding a friend and going for a walk but if you're here today and lost your way lets try to find that loving feeling yes if you find yourself a reeling let's try to find that loving feeling!
13.
Chorus: So put your head on my shoulder and we'll both wake up one day older just you and I, just you and I Hey kid what do you know you went to a rock n' roll show and you met a guy, now it's you and I Many years have passed since then you went to a lover from my best friend and I cried, when you almost died Chorus
14.
Chorus: My identity is secure in Christ and Christ alone I am made whole and made complete I'm gonna shake that dust off of my feet I'm gonna shake that dust off and be made complete Is that you speaking Lord? What is this season for? Is that you talking as I'm walking out the door? as I'm walking out the door! chorus Well I'm lacking confidence! Nothings making any sense? Yes I'm looking forward as my dreams fall through the floor! As my dreams fall through the floor chorus If my identity's secure, then why am I'm feeling insecure? If my identity's complete then why am I shaken in my feet? So maybe, maybe I should stop and take some time, to look inside me and see what has broken down see what has broken down chorus so I'm setting fire to ever learning how to Seek my identity in how people make me feel, how people make me feel chorus
15.
My life was spinning round and round never minutes to slow down then God he put his finger down & everything is upside down chorus: I'm putting my anchor down, walking around this town. I'm putting my feet in my shoes and my socks and walking around these neighborhood blocks As minutes slowly turned to weeks, and every thing felt oh so bleak There's kindness in the words you speak, but on these days I'm feeling meek chorus My life was spinning round & round & like a boy with out a frown I'm happy with this freedom I have found! I'm happy with this freedom I have found!

about

Nate let me in the band when we got married. He had already been playing solo for a few years. Of course, I make the band more fun, but Nate is the main songwriter. He's just really prolific, there's no way I could keep up. He can go to the bathroom and come out with a new song, fully completed.

I started a new crazy job in 2009. I do people's taxes, working in an office and filling out forms and helping people pay the government as
little as legally possible. It's even better when I can help people get more money back. Anyway, it's seasonal work, mid-January to mid-May. It gets pretty crazy around April 15th, like retail at Christmastime. Tax Day is also my birthday.

While I do taxes, Nate does homework. He's a full-time student and he handles all the business side of the band, like booking our long tours. He wrote a lot of this album during his Spring Break. As his wife, I see the hang-ups, the sensitive spots in his life that I can't make him deal with till he's ready. In writing this album, he “went there”. I'm very proud of him for making such a vulnerable album.

Tour. Work and school. Tour. Work and school. STOP! We were pretty excited about the tour we had booked for June 2010. We were going to play several shows with Andrew Jackson Jihad that we were looking forward to. But deep inside I was thinking, “I need a break!” But what could we change? We were about to leave again. I came home one day with abdominal pain. It felt like a wave of needles across my abdomen.It wasn't constant, but when a wave came it Hurt! We played 2 shows that weekend. I was a whiner but we still rocked! On the 6th day of pain, I realized that it was not going away and I couldn't take it anymore. I went to the hospital and after the CT scan, they said, “well, as far as we can tell it looks like your appendix ruptured several days ago! We'll have to get in there to find out what damage it's caused.”

That began my 12 day stay in the hospital. They took me into surgery in the middle of the night and told Nate it might take and hour or hour and a half. He sat alone and scared in my room for 4 hours waiting for me with no word, freaking out. They took out 20% of my colon and some of my small intestine. 2 days after the surgery, I started getting worse and ended up having some large pockets (grapefruit size) of infection drained.My mom flew in from PA, and she and Nate camped out in my room every night. I keep learning how amazing it is to have family care about you.

While I got all this love and attention (and pain meds), poor Nate had to hold everything together. He still had to deal with finals and work and communicating to the rest of the world. It was his difficult decision to cancel the tour so that I would have time to get back to normal. I got the break I needed, but Nate felt like he'd been hit by a ton of bricks. Which is always good inspiration for a song. - Tessa Allen

credits

released August 13, 2010

Record & Mixed by Tyler Hentschel & Nate Allen
Mastered by Gus Elg @ Sky Onion

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Destroy Nate Allen Kansas City, Missouri

We play Interactive, sing-a-long, folk punk.

“The King & Queen of Audience Interaction” - I Heart Local Music

“Quirky and off-beat and crazy fun.” – Huffington Post

“One of those you-gotta-see-it-to-believe-it bands that only comes along once in a great while.” – Jersey Beat
... more

contact / help

Contact Destroy Nate Allen

Streaming and
Download help

Shipping and returns

Redeem code

Report this album or account

Destroy Nate Allen recommends:

If you like Destroy Nate Allen, you may also like: